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Date:2006-06-07 10:13

heyeveryone - i mis and love you all and would love to hear what you are all up to. If you ever want to email me over the summer they will print it off for me and it would make my day.

http://www.campgeneva.org/ go here and click on email summer staff. My phone doesn't work here but i will try to call you next time I drive to town or something. Court - come with my fam sunday please!!! and if someone else wants to come to my parents will drive you to come see me sunday morning.

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Date:2006-05-22 18:28

[+] I have read a lot of books.
[+] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[+] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[+] I have been to Canada.

[ ] I have been to Europe.
[ ] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[++] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[+] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[+] I have been snowboarding/skiing.

[+] I have played ping pong.
[+] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[+] I have seen fireworks

[+] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[ ] I have had stitches.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[+] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects.
[+] I currently have a job.
[+] I have been ice skating.
[+] I have been roller blading.
[+] I have fallen flat on my face.
[+] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[ ] I have played video games for more than 3 hours straight.
[+] I have watched the Power Rangers.

[+] I attend Church regularly.
[+] I have played truth or dare.
[+] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[+] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[+] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.

[+] I've climbed a rock wall.
[+] I've cried myself to sleep.
[+] I've had (or have) pets.

[+] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[ ] I've owned a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[ ] I've owned a Backstreet Boys CD.
[+] I've mooned someone.
[ ] I have sworn at someone of authority before.
[+] I've been in the newspaper.
[+] I've been on TV.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[+] I've eaten sushi.
[+] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[+] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[+] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.

[+] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[+] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[+] I've met a celebrity/music artist.

[+] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[+] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[+] I've had/have siblings.
[+] I've been to a rock concert.

[+] I've done drugs.
[+] I've been homesick.
[+] I've thrown up.
[+] I've puked on someone.
[+] I've been horseback riding

[+] I've done modeling.
[+] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[+] I've taken something/someone for granted.

[+] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[ ] I've fainted.
[+] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[+] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[+] I've been pushed into a pool.
[ ] I've been/am in love

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Date:2006-05-13 19:17
Subject:riches i need not nor mans empty praise

The new pup! Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Court brought Roxy over and they became friends Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Lexi on the other hand isn’t so sure about this little boy entering the family Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

I think this picture is funny. It’s a noose that was hanging in the cafeteria of the abandoned building. Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

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Date:2006-05-11 22:53
Subject:i love court and the office

haha- i love court - and we are really good at typing

SurfRenee (10:50:12 PM): i'm never going to meet someone - i'm waiting for some amazing guy to pop out - ha
SurfRenee (10:50:21 PM): o well - i like independance
beanpole186 (10:50:21 PM): ha
beanpole186 (10:50:28 PM): that is good
beanpole186 (10:50:37 PM): soemtime one will pop out
SurfRenee (10:51:16 PM): hopefuly - i just picture someone liking jumping out of a tree at me now - ha
beanpole186 (10:51:46 PM): haha
beanpole186 (10:52:07 PM): that might happpen it would be true love...b/c he was climbing a tree

and the office tonight was aaaaaaaamaaaaaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzziiiiiiiiingggg!!!!!!!

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Date:2006-04-30 17:32
Subject:when i'm done i feel like talking . without you here there is less to say

So Wednesday Scott, Aaron, and I went on an adventure in Detroit because we didn’t have studio. First we went to this house that Scott and I accidentally found to take pictures because its soooo pretty.
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then down the raod we found this abandoned school and decided to explore. Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting the window we had to climb into Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting dance room Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting hall way Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting I was scared I was going to like run into a homeless man in one of the rooms – and then one rolled up when we were leaving – but he was cool with it. Old piano Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

then we went to bell isle Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting and climbed trees Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

I’m going to/do miss these boys toooooo much Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

By the way – most of these pictures were taken by Scott or Aaron – I get no credit

Thursday was party on the hill. It was a pretty ok time. Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting can I just say –that this is the school I go to – o man - Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

School is done – I’m in Muskegon for a month with nothing to do until I go to Geneva. Call me up to hang out – or if your into having someone visit I’m into visiting. Its real good to be back and spend time with my fam and pup dogs.

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Date:2006-04-20 19:58
Subject:The littlest birds sing the prettiest songs
Mood: chipper

thanks james

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits
about yourself. In the end you need to choose people to be tagged and list their names.
No tag backs!!

1. Sometimes I overanalyze life way to much and will try to give meaning to everything I do - but then those days come around when I just throw it all away and feel that life is just meant to have fun with. In the end I think it all balances out - I'm happy.
2. I had a blanket and sucked my fingers until I agot braces because then I couldn't fit them in my mouth anymore - i still have my blanket
3. I have really bad eating habits - especially when they force me to be on the meal plan
4. I've never met anyone that I could picture myself marrying and i have never been in love
5. I often finding myself wanting what i don't have and then when I get that I want what I had before - so I'm working on appreciating what I have. Like I'm real ready for school to be done but as soon as I get home I'm going to miss it.
6. I think that all the time that I spend in studio/with other architecture stidents has made my social skills with normal people really bad - I'll admit that architects are "different".

i tag...
Katie T.
Court (if you haven't already been)
My cousins - becca and Laura
anyone who hasn't done it yet

So life has been real good. I've been super busy but my final Crit is tomarrow and i'm done with studio for the semester!!!!! exams next week - party on the hill thrusday which will be amazing (anyone want's to come visit for it it's def. the best party of the year) - then moving home friday for a month before I'm off to Geneva to gaurd for the summer.

Julie and I have been taking full advantage of concert season.

Panic!(ha) / academy is / acceptance - all i have to say is middle school - mini van anyone
motion city / the format - the guy from the matches was def. hitting on julie - ha - fun show
ben folds - bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks
metric - played too much new stuff but still good
pretty girls make graves in a few weeks - whoot whoot

Its nice out side - i love life!

some pics Image hosting by Photobucket .. I stole this picture from Harris – I love how court and I are attempting to kiss each other from a mile away – haha.

Image hosting by Photobucket … Katie and I at sig ep on sat.

Image hosting by Photobucket … Jake, kyle, and I on sat. I love those boys.

Image hosting by Photobucket .. AJ and I have matching earrings!!! Be jealous

check out the good be tanya's - i'm into it

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Date:2006-02-27 22:52
Subject:. what good is it to live . with nothing left to give .

sooooooooooooooooooo -

i've been real busy . still am . shouldnl't be spending time doing this . o well . can't wait till spring break in 4 days!

i went to the coldplay concert last weekend and it was AMAZING! i'm so in love! i almost started crying when tehy played swallowed in the sea = my favorite!

i went to western the other weekend . good to see everyone . ended up getting locked out of the girls apartment and driving back to Detroit at 4 in the morn with the boys passed out in my car . got there when the sun was coming up . its a jesus miracle i made it withouth falling asleep . i've never been so frustrated in my life but i'm over it ....

I got to see this beautiful lover Image hosting by Photobucket

and this one Image hosting by Photobucket

and some other amazing ppl
and I got to play Mario cart – it was really intense Image hosting by Photobucket

i'm single now . well wait - i'm still married to harris - but in terms of men i no longer have one . it needed to be done

i'm giving up icecream/chocolate/peanutbutter for lent . if i;m dead before easter you will know why . i will be so proud of myself if i can do this ha

i'm pretty happy with myself lately . i'm starting to remember whats important in life

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Date:2006-02-05 22:27
Subject:and i'm surrounded by - a million people i - i still feel alone - let me go home - i miss you
Mood: confused

I went and worked a winter retreat at Geneva this weekend. I was really nice to be back but I think it was too much to take on with school in the back of my mind.

I've just been so stressed out with so many things on my mind and I really just need to calm down.

I got to see my mom for 20 min. on my way out of town - I wish it could have been longer - I need her = I need home - I don't really have a "home" - but I have her - and I have my lady Western and State friends and they are both way too far away for me to handle lately. Momma got me a humidifier and I was way too excited about it.

I went dowtown with Aaron, Eric, and Scott on thursday to check out the super bowl festivities. I was actually proud of Detroit. There is so much potential in Detroit and I'm glad to see people aren't giving up on it. Eric is going to buy Scott and I coldstone if we can go a whole week without making fun of him. Scott better not ruin this for me - ha. As crazy as those kids are - their humor and kindness keeps me balanced at this school.

this is from the other weekend at Patrices loft - steve eating my face and andrew ... ummmm ... who knows what he's doing Image hosting by Photobucket

this pic is from a long time ago when meg, court, man, and yanka came to visit me - i was thinking that someone really needs to come visit me again - please! Image hosting by Photobucket

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Date:2006-01-24 18:11
Subject:well the day is done and i look back and the fact is that i had fun fumbling around
Mood: stressed

taking a break from hw/study

auto show on friday with the boys
Image hosting by Photobucket scott and eric = totally gay Image hosting by PhotobucketImage hosting by PhotobucketImage hosting by Photobucket my new ridesImage hosting by Photobucket "get in the van kids"Image hosting by Photobucketreinveting the big white rapist van - scotts into it Image hosting by Photobucket bean bag time!Image hosting by Photobucketo scott and ericImage hosting by Photobucketmy boyfriend taking me for a drive in the hummer - haImage hosting by Photobucket eric and i - we are so sweet - ha

we went to the ukranian new years fest with andrew - it was a little bit like wedding crashers - but soooo much fun!!!! I need to get some more of that blood inside of me - they we doing these intense dances - it was amazing!Image hosting by Photobucket dan , steve, and IImage hosting by Photobucket they passed out hats and noise makers and i was way to excited - it got pretty intenseImage hosting by Photobucket steve and i dancing - it was real funny - and then mark spinned me around like they did in their fancy dancing - it was soo good

so - i miss this Image hosting by Photobucket

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Date:2006-01-08 20:16
Subject:what would happen if we kissed .... would your tongue slip past my lips

break was good - much needed - i didn't get to see my ladies as much as i wanted to - but i loved the time i did get to spend with them - did lots of stuff over break and lots of sitting around as well

Image hosted by Photobucket.com doug playing for the fam - that boy better make it someday because he's real good
Image hosted by Photobucket.com mans house for new years round two = good times
Image hosted by Photobucket.com we still got it
Image hosted by Photobucket.com Image hosted by Photobucket.com sometimes i think i really hate being back in muskegon - but then i go to the lake and walking along the beach makes me fall in love with it all over again - everytime - i love going to the beach because it puts me back in my place and makes me feel so powerful all at the same time

well time for school to start - i must say i am excited to be getting back to a more productive schedule - it's sad when the highlight of your day is walking your dog or sitting and reading in the sauna at norton pines

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Date:2005-11-23 14:31
Subject:Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!! ....almost

I was just wondering if anyone (court?) would be interested in flying to New York with me The week before Christmas to see my friend Holly. I want someone to come with me so we can roam new york while she is in classes and studying for finals. We can stay at her place and her mom is working on finding some reasonabe tickets - so if your interested let me know asap!

Also - what are we doing this weekened - i'm in muskegon so call me if anything is happening!

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Date:2005-11-19 17:51
Subject:and thats the way we get by

soooooooooooo ..... court, meghal, bianca, and man came and visited me last night and it was amazing. We juat hung out in steve and andrews room with some kids for awhile and then went to some house for a bit. Julie and sherri came down for the night to. I love my friends! we all went shopping today at 12 oaks - i need to not spend $. Them coming here to see me makes me soo happy - i just kept smiling.

i'll be home either tuesday night or wendsdayafternoon - haven't decided if i'm going to skip wendsdsays classes or not yet. I'm really excited to spend time with everyone and see Geneva ppl.

ummm... i stole this survey from anne and my results are kinda true - a lot - ha

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

I can't wait untill these next few days are over so i can go home and see my fam and dogs and the lake and will and all my loves!

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Date:2005-11-13 21:38
Subject:my world goes black before i feel an angel lift me up and i open blooshot eyes

so aj, dan, steve and i went to western last night - it was soo much fun. The boys were having way to much fun togeter - team action - the wave - dancing with crazy girls - writing their name on all the food in the girls apartment - cheese sammys. I love my friends - i wish western wasn't so far away!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com soooooo – bome ppl in the apartment next to us started throwing eggs so the boys got eggs and threw them back and then the ppl got all pissed and all tried to come over and fight us and started throwing glass bottles at the slider and the glass was splitting all night – it sounded like rain. Anyway we called the cops and surprise all the people disappeared.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com dan, aj, steve, and Bianca dancing in the car on the way back

Image hosted by Photobucket.com what are aj and steve doing – and why is that boobs girl on top of dan in the background – haha

Image hosted by Photobucket.com aj and dan dancing with the crazy girls

Image hosted by Photobucket.com this is either the best picture anne and I have ever taken or the worst – I haven’t decided yet

Image hosted by Photobucket.com steve, aj, dan, and josh doing the wave – they had it going for at least an hour I swear

Image hosted by Photobucket.com aj peeing while walking backwards

Image hosted by Photobucket.com anne , me, Danielle, hill , and Bianca

Image hosted by Photobucket.com steve, aj, and dan thinking their gangsta b/c were from the d and we know someone who got shot in the face 3 times – 50 cent what

Image hosted by Photobucket.com i love these boys – even though they are quit a handful - i'm glad they are into driving to kzoo all the time with me - aj, me, steve, and dan

next weekend meg's coming from k-zoo with nic and hopefully man and bianca or whoever else can come! and then the next weekend is thanksgiving!

by the way -- i love icea ceam ----- and coldplay ---- and frou frou ---- and music in general - and sitting on annes laup laughin hysterically at girls dancing like crazys and falling all over the place

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Date:2005-11-10 14:48
Subject:dance to this beat.....

dear secret santa -

i've been a pretty good girl i think so i would like ......

_____band tshirts or hoodies (Jimmy Eat World, Mae, Panic!, Motion City, anything you think i like)

_____any good dvd (garden state, cold mountain, closer)


_____earings because i have lost every pair in moving around

_____if you are courtney - a painting

_____real old fashion sweet hats from a vintage store

_____any good tshirts or tanks or clothes or jewlry or sakcs/purse or belts that you think i would like

_____pictures of my loves are always good

i hope i gave enough ideas - you guys always say i'm hard - i will love whatever you get me - shoot get me some wine and i'll be satisfied

i love you all - and are we going to go to chicago after the christmas party for coheed/falloutboy? I think that would be a lot fo fun so we should probably decided and get tickets soon. <3

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Date:2005-11-06 16:32
Subject:nothing compares to you........

This weekend was pretty random.

Friday = Royal Oak then watching ghostbusters with steve, dan, and steve.

sat = my aunts then aj bringing me to western because he's a sweet kid. we were hanging out in the girls apartment and then anne, man, and i decided to randomly drive to muskegon to go to courts house and see everyone. It was sooo good - my wife was there and court and matt yonk and birr and so many people that i haven't seen in so long. Then showed up at my house at like 4 and suprosed my mom and spent the night - too bad i couldn't spend more time with me mom - she's a pretty amazing lady - well slept for a few hours untill i had to wake up at 8:39 and start driving back. The way back to western anne, man, and i had some pretty intense girl talk. Then i just slept on the way back to detroit as our car almost blew away and got hit with random flying objects - sorry aj. anyway - i enjoyed the randomness and i love my friends!!!!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com man y yo at western
Image hosted by Photobucket.com anne and i being tards on the way to muskegon
Image hosted by Photobucket.comMATTYONK!!!!!!
Image hosted by Photobucket.com emily, court,m and i - court and i have amazing hairstyles due to the flood in muskegon
Image hosted by Photobucket.com carrying my wife across the threshold
Image hosted by Photobucket.com birr, anne , and i in jonny's sweet van
Image hosted by Photobucket.com a bunch of the boys
Image hosted by Photobucket.com Image hosted by Photobucket.com trying to take a family picture of mark, court, and roxy - hahaha

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Date:2005-10-30 14:31

the weekend was pretty fun. Went to some sweet loft party on friday. sat i went out for a bit with katie and maria - but i pretty much just took it easy.

i missed everyone so much at western but i'm sure you all had fun. I can't wait to thanksgiving - it's going to be amazing!

julie and i Image hosted by Photobucket.com
andrew and jamie Image hosted by Photobucket.com
kaite and jamie Image hosted by Photobucket.com
a bnuch of crazy kids Image hosted by Photobucket.com
o - and aaron found a fake mustache kit in my box of paper samples during studio Image hosted by Photobucket.com

memory of the day - harris and i planning on living in her camper all summer and bringing sooo much food out there everynight and sneaking tons of ice cream then ppl would stop by in the middle of the night and scare the crap out of us. good times.

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Date:2005-10-25 20:39
Subject:i'm here i'm now i'm ready ... holding on tight .. don't give away the end..

- mom came sunday - it was real good to see her

- went to western the other weekend with dan and steve - i never realize how much i truly need and love those girls tilli see them

- i now have a roomate as of yesterday = good so far

- i'm being an 80's aerobic's person for hallloween and i'm real excited!

- studio is kiicking my ass

- the new jimmy ep is sooooooo good

- i don't think i'm going to western cause i have plans for friday and i really don't thinkn i'll be up to that drive on sat

lasty but not least - aaron can now work in the group with scott and i cause he made himself an ipod and glasses out of cardboard - i love these boys - they get me through school

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memory of the day - playing sardines at courts after sledding outside and troy hid in the laundry shoot - haha

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Date:2005-10-21 11:10
Subject:only because Anne tagged me and I do whatever she tells me too...

Reveal 5 songs that you have been enjoying lately, regardless of genre,

1. The Trasnfiguration - Sufjan Stevens
2. Swallowed in The Sea - Coldplay
3. Nothing Even Matters - Lauren Hill
4. It's Time To Dance - Panic! At The Disco
5. Eat This City - Thunderbirds are Now!

I tag...

Laura N.
Laura P.

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Date:2005-10-03 20:43
Subject:cause if the skyline looks this way then i don't wanna sleep tonight

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Date:2005-10-01 20:37
Subject:you better let somebody love you before it's too late...

soooo - my hair is now 10" shorter. I chopped it all off today and donated it to locks of love. It was time for a change.

Muskegon is god - it was good to hang out with court last night. We watched some funny videos we made. I also enjoy the fact that both my parents keep feeding me.

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